I sit here
shaking again
cigarette in one hand
mocha in the other
the food that I consumed
now in a bin bag 
inside a few nappy bags
inside another bin bag
sat on top if the rest of the rubbish
I can’t help but wonder
should I have something to eat
something to stop the shaking
something to make me warm again
no i should right?
I might end up eating to much again.i know ill end up eating more today
I always do.

how did I end up like this. 
why don’t I want this to end yet. 

Life is short, don’t waste time eating.